Post: #375

#1. "Lose Myself" by Lauryn Hill (2007)
(—) (+) "Surf's Up" OST
Tak jakoś się złożyło, że poza Beach Boysowym "Surf's Up", tegoroczny numer jeden, pochodzi z soundtracku do filmu o takim samym tytule; ale zapewniam, że to czysty przypadek. Ten utwór to bieg, to pęd, to chwila, to uchwycenie bardzo stałych i dojrzałych emocji i przemyśleń w krótkim, bardzo dynamicznym odcinku czasu. To już nie tylko zdawanie sobie sprawy, że postępujemy w jakiś określony sposób, to kolejna faza - świadome przyznanie tego. Tu każde słowo coś znaczy, nic nie jest przypadkowe, wszystko ma swój cel. Przyznaję, że to bardzo chaotyczny utwór, mnóstwo przejść, wiele nieuporządkowanych, ale szczerych i świadomych słów, ale to jego ogromny atut, że w tym całym bałaganie można się odnaleźć w bardzo właściwy sposób, bo nieład choć rozprasza, inspiruje - do podejmowania trafnych decyzji i tworzenia prawdziwych arcydzieł. Tu nie ma ucieczki przed rzeczywistością, jest za to odważne stawianie jej czoła i wyciąganie wniosków ze swoich wcześniejszych poczynań, aby kolejne decyzje były tylko lepsze!

I used to do it for the love a long time ago
And all I ever wanted was love
I used to love without fear a long time ago
And all I ever wanted was love
Then somebody came around and tried to hurt me
Tried to make me feel like I was unworthy
Took a pure love and tried to make it dirty
Truth was they never did deserve me, no!

I had to lose myself so I could love you better
I had to lose myself, had to lose myself so I could love you better
Had to lose myself, had to lose myself
So I could love you better
Had to lose myself in love
And that’s just the way it is…

Couldn’t tell me I was love when I needed it
When, all I ever wanted was love.
Should a told me just me because!
I’m worth receiving it
But all I ever wanted was love
There’s is something awkward about the selflessness it
takes to
Give love and the good that it makes you!
True love can never really forsake you
But it took a little while just for me to see!

I had a paralyzing fear of facing failure
And I couldn’t love you perfectly with fear in my head
So I peerlessly had to face the danger
So I could come back and love you whole instead
All of your soul I said!
So I could love you better...

And so it goes that I never meant to hurt you
Couldn’t stay but I never meant to desert you
Whole lot a things I just had to work thru
Time to heal and restore myself worth too
Confrontation of my fears and anxiety
Cried a whole lot years I suffered quietly
And though it may have taken years I can finally!
Tell you that you were always on my mind!

I had to lose myself so I could make it better
I had to lose myself, had to lose myself so I could
make it better
Had to lose myself, had to lose myself
So I could make it better
Had to lose myself in love
And that was just the way!

Takes strength to absorb all the abuse I did
Great love to absorb all the misuse I did
Hey baby it’s not an excuse I give.
And I’d do it all again because for you I live